Friday, January 3, 2014: the second day of the rest of my life.
The job change has come. I almost didn't make it to the end, but it in order to claim unemployment, I had to work as long as the job was available.
The boys and I have been in our jammies all day, keeping warm and doing indoor activities. There's tortilla soup on the stove, cats freaking out with catnip toys in the dining room, and kids playing Minecraft, too. Our Christmas tree stands in a corner of our living room, unlit. I think we'll put it away tomorrow.
Hero has just arrived home. I kissed him hello. He promptly changed out of his work clothes and into flannel pajama pants, slippers, hoodie, hat, and thick insulated vest. That's how we roll. A cold snap is heading our way. We may not venture out all weekend. Due to a forecast with dangerous wind chills, school has already been cancelled for Monday.
I've tried to make a habit of not expecting much out of life, especially not expecting happiness. When I received the layoff notice, I went into a period of very low self-esteem and high-energy job searching. It wasn't a very nice time to live through. Then, as I settled in to the reality of being forced to make a much-needed career change, my spirit rallied a bit. I'd hate to say that I started 'leaning in,' because I'm not fond of that term. But I did start daring to hope.
Since having children and getting Primo's autism diagnosis, I've tended to be a keep-your-head down, keep-working-to-support-your-family kind of person when it comes to work. I know what I'm good at, and though I've built up new skills over time, I tend to do the same kind of work wherever I go. Even when a job gets boring, tiresome, and lacks challenges or interesting people, I tend to stick to it loyally. But then things start to change, and the boredom starts to show my productivity. I lose focus. If the management style of the next-higher-up isn't proactive, I find it difficult to not go into something of a stasis, if not a tailspin. And then it's time to change.
It seems that the life cycle for my jobs is between two and five years.